please please please
я больше не могу это выносить
эти мои mental issues доводят до предела
мне нужно посетить специалиста
я серьезно
все настолько плохо, что я просто не знаю как быть с кем говорить как справляться дальше
я ничего больше не могу
ни учиться
ни просто существовать
this all came to an extreme level
I want it to end
I wish I have never had it
I'm not gonna cry or anything
although it is the thing I wanna do now the most
cuz I'm devastated
I have no more strength to deal with it
it's just too much
why, why I have all this in my head
I don't need it
I don't want it
I just want all those thoughts to stop
And feelings they cause to fade away
Because I have already had a physical collapse because of them
please.....
I'm a 25 years old adult
but inside I'm 15
because adults in their mid twenties do NOT feel and think the way I do
And I cannot save myself
I need help
cuz everything that is going on with me is definitely very very unhealthy